Friday is my favorite day

I work 4- 10 hour days so every Friday I get to spend all day with my baby girl! She has been laughing and smiling a lot lately. When she is at daycare during the week, I feel like I miss her happiest times, so on Fridays I just want to play with her all day! Today I caught a little of her cuteness on camera. She has been into sucking her fingers lately as evidenced by the last picture. Could she get any cuter???

A few new photos...

A couple of new photos from this week...

Back at work

I just finished my 2nd day back at work and I am doing pretty well. I think I did most of my crying last week because I only cried a little bit yesterday and not at all today. I do feel like my arms are empty and I miss my baby girl but I am going home now to see her and kiss kiss kiss her little cheeks! I will try to post some more pictures soon!

"It's the end of the summer when you send your children to the moon..."

Monday is D-day- day of dread. After 12 weeks off and 11 weeks with my precious baby girl I have to go back to work. I have been crying a lot today. My poor friend Lori called me and I bawled in her ear about how I don't want to leave my baby. I keep telling myself that moms who work do it all the time and their babies are fine. Almost all of my friends at work have children and they leave them every day. I guess I just never knew how hard it would be until I held Taylor in my arms and knew I never wanted to miss one second of her life. She is getting to be so much fun as of late. She has been babbling and is smiling all the time. There is nothing in the world that can compare to seeing her smile. I love, love, LOVE that she reacts to my voice and she knows her mommy. I don't want her to think someone else is her mommy. I feel great about the woman I am leaving her with- I have no doubt that she will feel loved and comfortable and will be taken care of but it just kills me that I am going to miss 45 hours a week of her life. I ran into one of my friends from work on Saturday night at Sam's club. His wife had a baby about 2 weeks after I had Taylor. He asked me when I had to go back to work and I told him September 10th and that I was dreading it. He said his wife was dreading going back to work too and that mommies should be with their babies. Mommies SHOULD be with their babies. Joel and I knew when we decided to have a baby that our choices were to wait until Joel was done with school to start our family or to start our family now and have to put our baby in daycare for at least a year until he finished school. We obviously chose to start our family. Like I said, I don't think I knew how hard it was going to be. I feel like I am sending my baby to the moon and like I am going to Jupiter. Hopefully she will be happy on the moon and I will readjust to life on Jupiter.

Babies belong in sacks

I have always thought babies look so cute in little sleep sacks! My mom, knowing this, bought Taylor a couple of sleep sacks and brought them out when she came to Colorado for Taylor's birth. They are starting to fit her now. Look how cute she is!

Who's your daddy?

I was attempting to take some pictures of Taylor's wild hair yesterday so I sat her in her bouncy seat and started snapping away. Usually she will look at me and occasionally smile if I am saying funny things to her, but all she wanted to do was suck on her hand! As far as I know, none of my parents' 5 children ever sucked our thumbs or hands or fingers. But Joel on the other hand... look at the pictures. If there was EVER any doubt in anyone's mind who Taylor's daddy is, well, there is no doubt now. Not only does she look like him, but she even sticks her hand in her mouth the same way he did as a baby! How cute is that? When she was born, one of the first things she did was stick her hand in her mouth. I guess we know where she got it from! She is definitely her daddy's girl!